Lost Inside

[Intro]
Swear I been stuck in my skull all week
Same four walls and a phone that screams
Scroll through pain like a damn routine
Tell myself, "Breathe"
But I barely even wanna breathe

[Verse 1]
Wake up, same ceiling fan slow spin
Empty pill bottle on the nightstand grinning
Friends hit my line, I just leave that ringing
I don't got words
Just this buzz in my head that’s stinging
Mama say, "Pray," but I drown in the silence
Therapist talk, but I cling to the violence
Punching my thoughts till my knuckles all violet
Still feel Lost
Like I’m searching in a house that’s quiet
Room full of clothes I ain't worn in months
Sink full of dishes and a mouth full of fucks
That I don't give, 'cause I'm tired as fuck
I keep laughing it off
But this laugh feel stuck

[Chorus]
I'm Lost inside, yeah, Lost inside
Whole damn world, but I hide my eyes
Say I'm fine, but I lied, I lied
Swear I don't know how to stay alive
I'm Lost inside, yeah, Lost inside
Heart so numb and my soul so tired
If I disappear, would you even mind?
'Cause I been Lost
Lost inside

[Verse 2]
Dark thoughts hit like a late-night text
Pop up quick, then they camp in my chest
Tell me I'm trash, that I'm worth way less
Than the scars on my arm
Than the air in my breath
Everybody posting they perfect days
I’m in the bathroom, wiping my face
Cold tile floor and my hands both shake
Staring at a kid
That I barely even fucking recognize, ayy
I drink too much just to shut that voice
Drive too fast, like I ain't got choice
Laugh in the group, but the laugh feels forced
Go home, crash out
Let the demons do the talking, of course
They say, "You ain’t shit, you a burden, kid"
"Who would miss you if you stopped this shit?"
I hit play on a song just to drown that drip
But it climbs right back
Like it lives in my ribs

[Chorus]
I'm Lost inside, yeah, Lost inside
Whole damn world, but I hide my eyes
Say I'm fine, but I lied, I lied
Swear I don't know how to stay alive
I'm Lost inside, yeah, Lost inside
Heart so numb and my soul so tired
If I disappear, would you even mind?
'Cause I been Lost
Lost inside

[Outro]
[Guitars ring out, drums fade to distant crackle]
If you feel this pain, then you ain’t alone (you ain’t alone)
We both got hell sitting deep in our bones
But we still here
Breathing slow
Yeah, we still here
Even when we feel Lost inside our soul (mmm)
Lost inside
Still holding on, just a fragile line
If you hear this voice
Then you still got time
We might be Lost
But we’re still alive (still alive)